Breath Lauren, rest assured you know nothing but your being craddled my my hands.
You feel this pain, but try mighty to understand we must suffer to prosper. You have to let it go, all the people, belifes, and belongings. Only then will you be your higher self. We love things that are not forever, what shall we do? shall we not love? No, that is not the answer for love opens our light, our colors, our kindness. To love is a wonder, but one must also realize with love comes the harmfull of all pains. This pain is full of rage, anger and nostalgia.
Lauren, try for me and yourself to not turn angry twards the things you cannot keep, the ones you love but have to let go into the world. You cannot controll destiny; I have faith you already know this. Goodbye is healthy. Love is like a wild rose. You cannot tame it, and if you try the plant suffers decay.
Let nature take its course. Realize Lauren sweet child that you are a rock in the rubble but you are no more than anyone else. When people say hurtfull things to you, understand this is impulse to pain, this is a way to make it easier on themselfs. Let them do this becuase no matter how hard it hurts you when they say these thing, i as well as you and as well as they, know what they REALLY feel. You cannot ecscape emotion. You can veil it your whole life in words, with drugs, or ignorance but at the end of the night, when we lay alone in warmth, we always remember.
Namaste and respects to you Child.
You will be okay.
-The unknown force around
